i could be giving you the world and you wouldn't notice becuase she simply looked at you.

I used to think that love was just something that people created for themselves
I used to think that I was just someone who finally had that figured out
I had it set in my mind that everyone's just trying to hard to find it
I had it set in my mind that everyone was just with someone they tollerated.
I don't want to be tollerated.
 
Then there's you.
You're opening my mind,
oh you,
you're making me think twice.
You,
I don't know what to do about you.
 
Now I'm worried, I always claimed to "value my independence,"
but now I find my self smiling when I am thinking of you.
I have it set in my mind, that you will just be another disappointment.
I have been practicing my lines, of what to say to you when you leave me. 
If you leave me, I'm a little too prepared.
 
But when I'm with you,
it all seems so real.
And I don't want to admit what i feel
when I'm with you.
Oh I don't know what to do with you.
 
Everyone's in it for something else,
everyone's in it for something else.
I don't want to fall,
Don't let me fall...
 
I used to think that love was just something that people made up.
I used to think that I was just someone who couldn't make it up.
 
But with you,
you're opening my mind
oh you,
You're making me think twice
You make me feel.
With you,
everything changes.
 
 

i havent updated becuase i havent written anything worthwhile

Your name here

let's be perfect.

look at me
the best at everything
you need to care
about what i want
and what i need
i need you
to hold my hand and kiss me
to show that we're together
pretend it'll last forever
what's your last name again?

dont lose your reputation
it's all about presentation
you want to be cool
you want to be cool
it's all about observation

let's be flawless.

look at me
and all my "good times"
i dont care what they think
but stayin inside their lines
and this is what i want
dont care what i need
right now i need you
to be around me always
you gotta show that we're together
and we'll pretend it'll last forever.

what's your last name, what's your last name
(she's perfect, dont you want her? shes everything you've dreamed of. i'm perfect, dont you want me? i'm everything you've dreamed i'd be...you created me, you made me)

don't lose your reputation
it's all about obligation
you have to be cool
you have to be cool
it'll all about interpretation

what do you want
now what do you need
what could you give up
what you leave?
could you leave me?
would you leave me?
do you know me?
can you show me?

dont lose your reputation...

I'm not a dream

i cant feel my fingers again
but i can still hear your voice
and i can still remember the words you said
they run back and forth through my head
but you dont know me

i once fell in love with a dream
i dont want you to do that with me
im not what you think i could be
i am nothing

i look at my chipped fingernail polish
the scar thats on my thumb
my hands are like my whole body
there are many different things wrong with me
how could you love me

i once fell inlove with a dream
i dont want you to do that with me
im not what you think i could be
i am nothing
and you are perfect for me

but i am just too wrong for this
you are probably what i need.
and i eventually want someone like you
just let me find myself first

cuz i once fell inlove with a dream
and i dont want you to go through that with me
and im not what you think i would be
you deserve more

MisTaken

people come and go everyday
i thought youd be the one to stay
i thought youd be the one to stay
but i was so wrong

and this is just another sappy love song about you
and i
thought that youd be the one to stay but
i was wrong again

she called me a bitch
didnt talk to her again
he cheated on me
did see him again
i thought youd be the one to stay but
i was so wrong

and this is just another sappy love song
about you
and i,
i knew youd be the one to stay but
no one really ever knows

dont tell me
not to be hurt
dont say
that youre sorry
dont speak
i dont want to hear your words anymore
i dont want to love

yes you guessed right again
that this sappy love songs about you
and i, was so sure you were the one to stay but
i was so ...

people come and go
everyday
you thought she would be
the one to stay
and i thought youd be the one to stay but
we were both wrong
we were so wrong
we were wrong again
mistaken

For Now
(more of a poem than a song)

paper thin
are the soul and skin
the lifeless fingers
wont respond to my grip
but the nails are prettier than my own.
and the two drops form one tear
as the cheeks touch.
the cheeks, soft and beautiful,
and rosy like the nails.
if you hear me

goodnight for now
goodbye for now
angels will guide your way
goodnight for now
goodbye for now
in my heart youll always stay

change, pain
its all the same
i can feel my heart beat in my stomach
i can feel it, sinking.
listening to explanation after another
listening to the breathing
the only proof of life
tubes, nicknames, and memories fill the room
i love you and if you hear me

goodnight for now
goodbye for now
angels will guide your way
goodnight for now
goodbye for now
in my heart youll always stay

everything will be okay somehow
you can let go of the thread that holds you
goodnight and goodbye for now

ps if youre going to comment, please don't criticize this, it's just a personal one

YOU

we've both been unattached
for quite a while now
we claim that's what we want
but i dont buy it
we are so full of it
i want more

you've gotta be the one for me now
you've gotta feel what i thinks so real now
you, it's you
it's all on you

i adore you
i want more from you
you are holding back
you are so scared
you are so afraid
i want more

but you've gotta be the one for me now
you've gotta see what i thinks so clear now
you, it's you
it's all on you

i have been so selfish
to just imagine the way you kiss
and not being able to resist right now

oh you've gotta be the one for me now
you've gotta feel what i thinks so real now
it's you, you
oh you, you, you, it's all on you

and the tears keep coming and
i keep on learning not to trust anyone
and my heart keeps achin and
i keep on breakin cuz i cant trust anyone
and the phone keeps ringing
and i keep on singing that i cant be with anyone
and the phone keeps ringing
and it keeps on ringing and i need you

i need you

oh you've gotta be the one for me now
you've gotta feel what i thinks so real now
it's you, you
you,
you've gotta see
you've gotta feel
you
it's you.

Last Place

patience young one,
hold tight, love will find a way with you soon
patience,
in the night, youll see the stars along with the moon

if you just hold on

patience young one,
hold tight, everything will be alright
patience,
soon, the sun will rise instead of the moon

and if you just hold on
clouds will clear
ill be near
gone your fear
if you just hold on
hold on

hear me young one,
learn, you might not get what you want
but listen,
dont give in, keep your shining smile on

if you just hold on
set aside your pain
wait for the rainbow
it may all seem the same
but youre the one with change
hold on

take me with you
do not settle for anything less
make me believe
what i speak, we only deserve the best

and if we just hold on
clouds will clear
someone's near
and gone our fears
if we just hold on
hold on

Tired

pushing too long
gets you weary
holding on
gets so dreary
i want something new

no words, no words
not knowing.
dont speak, no words
just show me now

and i want to feel you
you keep on holding back
i want your lips on mine
why cant you think like that
about me

maybe ill know the line
this time
but i cant push anymore
i cant find the key
ill surrender
ill give in now

no words, no words
not knowing.
dont speak, no words,
ill show you

that i need to feel you
you keep on holding back
and i want to fall asleep in your arms
but you wont give it a chance

i want to feel you
i want your lips on mine
i want to touch you
i want to fall asleep in your arms

i wonder if the time
will come
for this
for your kiss
for your touch
for the look
for your love

no words, no words
not knowing.
dont speak, no words
just show me now.

Down

smiling i look at you
with what i always do
your touch so soft on my arm
im just in your fucking way

you were lookin at someone else
just like everyone else
go find a skinny girl
and fuck all you pretty girls
i hate the world

i lost it all, i lost it all
everything i am, everything i thought i could get
jealousy sucks a dick
too bad i cant get rid of it

whats with all this superficial shit
why should i even care
maybe cuz its everywhere
fuck you fuck all of it

he was lookin at someone else
just like everyone else
now im bleeding
and im cursing
becuase of all of you

i used to be somewhat confident
it used to get me places
its so hard to get up and do that now
so hard when ive never been so down
i know that ive got to get up somehow
i hate the world right now


still editing, but whateva
sorry for the negativadivaness

words unspoken

whispering my name
questioning my existence it seems
i hear you
i hear you
i know what you think inside

relations fade
as the days go by
you dont know me
you dont try to
understand what i feel inside

and i want to leave
i want to really shut the door
you dont even want to be
your first intentions anymore

occasionally i try
sometimes it even works
but my words haunt me
you haunt me.
supposed to, but you dont inside

the flower closes at night.
and not when you're around
not when you're here
then i open up inside

and i want to leave
i want to really shut the door
and you shrug off what matters to me
you dont even care anymore

started second now in last
you keep that inside
and i know this inside

Lookin out the window for about two hours
seeing the exact same thing
Looking out the window
just to find something interesting
then i think of you

and i could look out this window forever
as long as your face is in the clouds
becuase ive known and ill know forever
theyll always be something between us.

i open the window and reach out
the wind is fire to my hand
now just looking out this window makes me understand
im in a prison without you.

but i could look out this window forever
as long as your face is in the clouds
becuase ive known and ill know forever
if i call out your name, it wouldnt be loud

enough, for you to hear me.
and the trails on these mountains
are like my fingernails i dont have
scratchin to get out
and the rocks on these mountains
are like everyone in this world
trying to get out

i could look out this window forever
as long as i can imagine you here with me
becuase ive known that this windows closed
and thats how it has to be

dont dissapear
dont leave me now
dont walk away
please stay
with me

title??
mirage? <- hmmm, the window? <- dont really like one but i cant think of anything

Return to sender
written by my good friend Daniel Cavanaugh


I'm writing your name
in invisible cursive,
awaiting the day
you will come back and say,
'i want you.'

I'm smelling the scent,
that remains on my pillowcase,
awaiting the day
you will come back and say,
'i love you.'
but that's not the case.

because you say,
you write,
you hold me tight
with meaningless intentions.

and you say
you're right
and i'll hold you tight
in desperate affection.


and I'll write your name
on paper i'll never send,
awaiting the day
you will come back and say
'forgive me.'
forgive me.

because you say,
you write,
you hold me tight
with meaningless intentions.

and you say
you're right
and i'll hold you tight
in desperate affection.

and you're receiving in the mail
my heart in a package that says
'return to sender.'

I already know

i may not be as pretty
i may not be as smart
but please don't you forget
that she broke your heart

dont tell me you miss her
i could care less
dont tell me you miss her
then i feel worthless

i dont want to be your number two
i dont want to feel not good enough for you
i dont want to be compared to her
i know what i feel, for you its a blur
and that's not cool with me

dont settle for me
i'm no one's second best
if she came back to you
would i be your regret?

do i not have that-
whatever it is
am i supposed to make her jealous
a fill-in-for-now for practice

i dont want to be your number two
i dont want to feel not good enough for you
i dont want to be compared to her
i know what i feel, for you its a blur
and that's not cool with me

so make up your mind
or ill leave
first could you answer these questions for me

am i your damn number two?
am i not good enough for you?
if shes all that you want
why screw with my head?
why am i with you now?

actually, please dont tell me,
i already know

Denial

who needs love anyway
its just an excuse
to act pretty crazy

so i want go looking
for "him" right now
becuase i dont know how
to not be scared
of getting my heart broken
of gettin it broken, (hey ya)

(chorus)
So ill go find a place
where i can be happy
and ill smile and laugh
without you
cuz i dont need love
and i dont need you
just to be happy

i am frozen inside
and you broke the ice
no you didnt think twice

so now ill be under covers
to hide my tears
but no one is here
im hiding from myself
i dont wanna be broken
no! im not broken!

and ill go find a place
where i can be happy
and ill smile and laugh
without you
cuz i dont need love
and i dont need you
just to be happy

we said all we had to say
on that 14th of May
who needs you anyway

cuz i can go to my place
where i am happy
and ill smile and laugh
without you
cuz i dont need love
and i dont need you
just to be happy

so i should go find this place
cuz right now, im not happy
and i am all alone
without you
but i am strong,
im not broken
cuz i dont need love
and i dont need you...

Taking a bath

hey, im washing it all away
im opening up a new self
im breaking out of this shell

oh, i think that you should know
i want you to take old me and go
cuz i dont need you here anymore

oo, im cleansing my body of you
cuz under this water i cant, hear you, smell you, feel you

try to understand why
its becuase i dotn know what to do
i lose so much sleep over you

so leave, cuz right now your confusing me
you only say what you say to please
and i cant take it anymore

oo, im cleansing my body of you
cuz under this water i cant, hear you, smell you, feel you


not done, just thought i would write it before i forget it

Daniel's fave

Charm

The elevator's empty
You said you'd be there
You tell me I'm your everything
When really you don't care

And sometimes words are just words
They don't mean anything
And sometimes words hurt
More than anything...

(chorus):
Love, what does it mean?
You care, it doesn't seem
Like anyone knows what these words mean.
Am I just in some bad dream?
'Cause every nice word...
Seems like a ... scheme

So turn off your charm,
I don't need it today.
Just say what you mean,
And mean what you say,

cuz sometimes words are just words
They don't mean anything.
And sometimes words hurt
More than anything...

Love, what does it mean?
You care, it doesn't seem
Like anyone knows what these words mean.
Am I just in some bad dream?
'Cause every nice word...
Seems like a ... scheme

Please, get me out of this dream,
Please, get me out of this nightmare,
oo I don't want to be here.
Please, Please,
Get me out of this...dream

Love, what does it mean?
You care, it doesn't seem
Like anyone knows what these words mean.
Am I just in some bad dream?
'Cause every nice word...
Seems like a ... scheme

The elevator's empty,
I'm here all alone again.
I guess you don't feel obligated
To the things that you said

Now I've learned-
All your words are just words,
They don't mean anything,
Sometimes words hurt...
More than, anything.

you dont mean it, so dont say it, oh.

written by Leah Koestner

Almost

why do i do this to myself constantly
why do i put this cloud over me
why do i long for your touch
when i know it's wrong ever so much
when will this feeling go away
or is it here to stay?

Its like almost getting kissed,
almost falling in love
almost...
how can you miss something that was never there,
feel something when you know,
he doesnt care...

why do i put myself in this position
every time a new sort of rendition
but i know its the same old thing
hes just another to hurt me,
or do i hurt myself?

and its like almost getting kissed
almost falling in love
almost...
how can you miss something that was never there
feel something when you know
he doesnt care...

hes just another to hurt me
or do i hurt myself?

I hate almost getting kissed
almost falling in love
almost...
why do i miss something that was never there
feel something when i know
he doesnt care

oh, i hate, almost
i have no reason to boast
becuase no one wants to hear, almost...

why should i care
when i know
he wont be there
its just almost...

Wrong decisions
girl, this is for you

So you kissed her
What happened, we were so in love
That’s okay, I forgive you,
Can we still be happy

I need you, I know you need me too
She wont be there for you

But you still chose her
You chose her
I can tell you now that was
The wrong choice
Something must have been blocking your vision
Cuz I know you made the wrong decision

Don’t you come crawlin back to me
I will slam the door
Don’t wanna be your back up
Im not that girl anymore

But I still love you and I hate you to
Why do we do the things we do

How could you choose her
You chose her
I can tell you now that was
The wrong choice
Something must’ve been blockin your vision
Cuz I know it was the wrong decision

I told you she had all I wanted
Now its more true cuz she has you
It hurts so bad, it hurts so bad

I told you I wouldn’t be your back up
But take a look at that you did come crawlin back
And I let you in, with open arms

It probably was a bad decision but who knows
If it was a wrong decision, who knows
If it’ll be a happy ending,
Who knows, who knows,
Wrong decisions are made,
Everyday, everyday...

shattered

my life is like a mirage
i drive forward my goals move back
and if i keep chasing them
they dissapear

But before i give in tell me now
is their room in your life somehow
cuz im broken and shattered and full of fear

its so hard for me to know
please show me how to let go

Chorus
I'm breaking on the inside
Lookin at my whole life
Everything's covered with snow
I need to get out of here
Run away from all my fears
Can't you see I'm losing hope

I try to run away
but i end up walking
then my knee gets scraped
and i drop my keys

and after i hit my head again
the door finally opens to let me in
but the room is crowded with what i tried to leave

Is there anyway for me to know
if i took the right turn now where should i go?

I'm breaking on the inside
Lookin at my whole life
Everything's covered with snow
I need to get out of here
Run away from all my fears
Can't you see I'm losing hope

not done, need bridge, also the second verse is iffy
-by leah, if anyone has any ideas or more lyrics i could add to this please comment!

Taken part 2

Hey now, look at mister nice guy
Don't say now, cuz i can see it in your eye
you dont give a damn about me

lets pretend, you didnt say that it would end
ya thats right, i'd go ahead and take a bite
just to see what it would be like

(chorus)
You think that nothin you're doin is wrong
but i say, don't look at me like that if your gonna turn your back
when she comes

ohh dont add icing to my cake
no i dont like my coffee with the cream
people arent what they seem

So lets just be friends
it'd probably be better in the end
but dont you give me that touch that look that smile
cuz ill give in like a child

You think that nothin you're doin is wrong
but i say, don't look at me like that if your gonna turn your back
when she comes

oh your like iron to me when she comes around
oh you think shes your water
but when your with her
you rust

ohhhh, ohhhh,

You think that nothin your doin is wrong
but i say, don't look at me like that if your gonna turn your back
when she comes

You think that everything's fine
but i say, don't act like im your world when you've got another girl
who believes you...
who believes you

hey you , dont play mister nice guy

written by leah koestner

what happened?

Were we meant to be? Oh....

I feel so empty
like a hole in the ground
you walked out of my world
and you didn't even turn around...

Why did you have to leave?
Oh, just tell me please....

Where can I find the love that we had?
It must've been strong cuz im hurting so bad
It must've been pure cuz I thought I was sure...
That you're the only one for me.

You left without warning
I'm here all alone.
Nothing will change but I'm still
sitting here by the phone.

Why did you have to leave?
Oh, just tell me please...

Where can I find the love that we had?
It must've been strong cuz im hurting so bad
I thought you were happy, cuz you told me
That I'm the only one for you...

You LIED,
and now I cry,
you LIED,
and now I die, inside

Why did you have to leave?
Oh, just tell me please...

Where can I find the love that we had?
It must've been strong cuz im hurting so bad
It must've been pure cuz I thought I was sure...
That you're the only one for me.

Where can I find the love that we had?
It must've been strong cuz im hurting so bad
I thought you were happy, cuz you told me
That I'm the only one for you...

Where can I find the love that we had?
It must've been strong cuz im hurting so bad
It must've been pure cuz I thought I was sure...
That we were so meant to be

We were meant to be
we, weren't, meant to be
Oh, no.

written by Leah Koestner

Winning

life was so boring
till you came along
i felt like a nobody
cuz nothing was going on

ya life was so boring
till you, you came along
you changed me you made me
feel like someone

(chorus)
oh you make me feel
pretty
oh you make me feel
so right and so nice
and oh you make me feel
like i...i dont know what but
oh you make me feel you
make me feel you
make feel...
im alive yeah

I felt like i was losing
the game of life
i'd run into obsticles they'd
cut me like a knife

ya life was so boring
till you, you came along
you changed me you made me
feel like someone

chorus

i dont know what to say
i dont know what to do
i dont know who i am
till im with you, yeah

life was so boring
till you, you came along
you changed me you made me
feel like someone

chorus

im alive yeah
im alive yeah

i think i need a new title...any suggestions?
written by Leah Koestner

Ghosts

LIfe is like a haunted house
with ghosts inside
some of them help us
some of them hurt us
some just sit there, and watch

I get hurt, everyday
its so hard to push my fears away
why are people selfish
why do they hate
why do they sit there, and watch...

(chorus):
The terrors of the world
the laughter of boys and girls
the hatred the love
a crow and a dove
life is not long, you can sing it in a song
so remember,
if theres a sweet tune,
sing along, sing along.

We know without bad and sad and mad,
there'd be no good
learn from your mistakes and know that you should
let go of hard times
remember the best times
dont just sit there and watch

CHORUS

Forget the hard times
hold on to the laugher
Let go of hatred
but remember,
the love, and learn from

CHORUS

sing alongx2

if there's a sweet tune, please,
sing along.

written by leah koestner

To Someone

I walk down the street
A boy and a girl
and all that they see
is them in their own world

and im filled with envy cuz
i want that for me

cuz im sick and tired
of the same thing
i want to fall in love, in love

i want someone to hold me
to love me and to care
to walk me home
softly touch my hair

want someone to write a song about
someone who'll always be there, right there.

(chorus)
I want love,
and I want you...
whoever you are...

Please somebody find me
and hold me tonight
we'll fall inlove
under the starlight

I know it may be unrealistic
but i want the perfect guy

Chorus

I want someone to hold me and i
want someone to care and i
want someone who'll always
be there.....
Cuz im sick and tired
of being alone
i want to fall in love, in love

(chorus two)
Cuz I want love
and I want you
i want you, to want me too...
whoever you are

chorus one

You walk with me,
suddenly i'm that girl
cuz all that i see
is us in our own world...

TAKEN / BENDING
(cant decide)

How can this be?
This isn’t supposed to happen to me.
What’s going on?
I don’t know why I’m writing this song.

This isn’t right.
Why do I think of you every night?
We are just friends
But my heart is making a bend.

What is feeling inside...
Why can’t I make it hide?
I wish I
Could teach my heart to lie.

I don’t know what to say
Why am I feeling this way
Please help me out
At least help me shut my mouth

Cuz I know this isn’t right
But I still think of you every night
We are just friends
But my heart is making a bend.

What is feeling inside...
Why can’t I make it hide?
I wish I
Could teach my heart to lie.

You are taken
My heart is mistaken
When I’m with you I’m shaking
And I know I’m making
A fool of myself…

So why am I trying
I’m not lying
When I’m with you I’m flying
Without you, I’m dying
How come?

What is feeling inside?
Why can’t I make it hide?
this isnt right,
but the thought of you and I...

What is this feeling inside?
Why can't I make it hide?
I wish I
could teach my heart to lie.

Cuz i know this isnt right
but i still think of you every night
and we are just friends
but my heart is makin a bend

What is this bending inside...
Why can't I make it hide?
Cuz i know were just friends
but the thought of you and I
never ends....
never ends...
never ends..........

by leah koestner

joel-

i didn't even know you
but i still miss seeing your face
i've never even talked to you before
but im not sure
why it had to happen to you, to you

no there was no reason
no he had no reason
you didnt deserve this

why'd he have to do that
i don't understand
i wish you could come back
and change what happened that night, that night

no one could explain
and no one should go through this pain
you were so innocent

and the sky was gray today
but i could still feel your presence
the cold wind hit my face
like a touch of innocence

thank god my mom said i couldn't go
thank god the other lives were saved oh
oh god i wish that i had known, joel

i missed out

i didnt even know him
but i still miss seein his face
i've never even talked to him before
but i am sure
hes in a much better place, better place

(oh)
he touched so many lives
i wish i, knew how

i missed out, i missed out, i missed out.

all written by leah koestner